March 17, 2007
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Who are you to wave your finger, Ya must’ve been out your head
Jeeze, my own emotions have been betraying me lately, I know what is right… I know that it is through… I know that I should have moved on when I said I would. The fact is that the poison that you are, is beyond attractive, it is incurable. I am dying. If not from one thing from another. I am so old yet so young… and I hate how it feels. The only viable solution to the equation, the only option that I have left, is to roll with the punches. I must accept my now crippled life. I must bite the bullet and face all the reprecusions of both my past actions, and the actions that I am about to undertake. I know what I have to do now… I just don’t know how to do it or where to start. When I said that I was over you, I should have believed myself and moved on a lot quicker than I did.
I failed.
I always fail.
Sometimes I don’t even no if this was all meant for me, I think that I may be living the wrong life, in the wrong body at the wrong place and at the wrong time. I cannot die, but living isn’t easy at this point either.
Help, somebody, if anyone exists… help… I don’t like being cold. I don’t like being ugly. I don’t like being here.
How fast do you have to run to fly
How long does it take… from when you fall to when you die
Why do I feel like a fake… was this life even meant for me
Why do I feel so alone, when millions of people surround.
When I look at this from a distance
it is hard to miss the evidence
I must hold deep to my roots, and not let any of the bad get in.
My ribs feel much more like a cage
a prison containing my violent heart, not letting it escape
When the rain comes down upon me, and by rain, I mean all that it is that I have to do… my work, my life, my school, my relationships… why is it that I am better at helping other people solve their problems than solving my own.
LIFE WILL KNOCK ME DOWN!
BUT THAT IS NEVER ENOUGH
Pacem
ps. i know this is an old post, but i think it is more applicable now than when i wrote it half a year ago
Comments (6)
haha i never said i wasn’t.
what can i say, she’s my little sister…i love her (unfortunately). =oP
“If this is what I’m meant for, I’m no longer interested.”
But there is hope. Yes, there is always hope even for the heartbroken and those who seem to be stuck on a one-way road to hell. There is hope
-Patrick-
in order for someone to help you, you must be willing to receive it. i’ve told you countless times that im hear for you, and i will tell you countless more. just trust it, and know that you can trust me.
hey man. give me a call later today.
That’s a repost? When did you originally post it?
hey walter. i love you. im so glad ive gotten to know you and i very so much appreciate u and all that u are. please dont be too hard on urself. ur amazing.